patchouli stops making you nauseous when

patchouli stops making you nauseous and starts to feel like something safe after a while. you smelled it at college, walking down your dorm buildings hallways haunted by insane, wild cannibals, kids burning incense with the windows open to mask the smell of pot. you did that too, only you used a spray can of Lysol or sometimes Febreeze instead of incense, because you thought it seemed less suspicious. then when you had a mental collapse and finally dragged your body back home, you never smelled it again. and you were relieved.

you stopped smoking weed for two months before starting again. it was rough at first but you got used to it again over time. you started burning incense just for fun, not because you had to or there was any pressure put on you. sometimes it smelled nice, but sometimes it was too much. sometimes it reminded you of the past. but the more weed you smoked and the softer the past felt, the more you liked the smell of incense, made you feel like a hippie, made you feel like you belonged to something you liked and could agree with. and that's when the smell of patchouli doesn't smell that bad anymore.