you can’t write through tears, i’m convinced it’s impossible. that’s why when i tell you i was crying 30 seconds ago it has to be stylized. there’s no way to put abjection on the page or screen. there just isn’t. this is why you can’t write about cataclysmic happenings from inside of them. your brain just can’t process that shit. it’s too much to be dealing with abjection inside and writing about it outside at the same time.
this why most writers’, especially young writers’, attempts at writing about pain fail miserably. it tends to be, on my end, “i don’t believe you” or “who gives a fuck?” most writers just don’t know how to convey abjection while not being inside of abjection, which is a necessity if you’re going to write anything powerful because, as i’ve established, it’s impossible to write about abjection from inside of it.
