Nightmares

Whenever I fall asleep I have nightmares.  I have to stop falling asleep.

When I was 4 it was Thanksgiving and my uncle pulled his cock out in front of me.  He pressed it to my lips.

Before and after that was school.  School was the main nightmare.  I keep coming back to it, it and the tiny shit town that raised me.

I have to stop falling asleep.

College is where I accidentally smoked PCP.  For the next seven years after that I was locked in PCP hell.  I saw the world distorted and black.  My mind was a contorted version of what it had been.  When I slept on PCP, I didn't dream, or if I did I didn't remember it.  Seven years later my mom discovered that DXM can counteract PCP.  I'm out of PCP hell.  Whenever I fall asleep I have nightmares.

I have to stop falling asleep.

While I was under the influence of PCP I became a drug addict.  I was also raped.

I have to stop